Bestfriend
Did you know that every single day of my life I want to be your best friend for life. And that ever single day I know that I’m not your best friend and never will. I also know that I don’t have the qualification to be your best friend or your friend. Everyday my heart says that we are best friend for eternity. But in my head it always says that we are meant to be just friend. I don’t know which one I have to believe. Although we are far apart from each other but I know that you are the one who keeps half of my heart. When I think that you are away from me, I know that half of me am with you. I also know that I will always be safe because I believe that I always with you in the heart.
I remember the things that both of us gone through past years ago. Sweet memories and bad memories. I don’t want to erase the bad memories because I believe that when we were older, we will laugh about it together. And we will remember it as hilarious memories.
I always think that you are happy with your other friends. I hope you are happy. When I have a good time with my friends, I hope that you are the same. I don’t want to think that you had a bad day because I know that it is hard for me to be there for you. I hope your friends will be with you. I bet that your friends far better than me and I don’t want to brake the friendship that you have.
When I’m searching for my funny ’lion’, I always search it in my heart because I know that I can find you there. When I need someone to talk to, you’re the last person I will find because I don’t want you to know that I’m suffering in the inside. And I don’t want you to get involve in the trouble that I made. It doesn’t mean that I don’t want to share things with you it just I don’t want you worried about me. I just have to handle it myself.
I love happy ending. But are there happy ending stories in reality life? I don’t know. And I want our story end with laughter and smile in our face. Not everything that I said came from my heart because I’m a blurry person and I always talk nonsense. My feelings are something that is really confidential. Only I and god know. So, no one in this world knows about how I feel inside. Am I suffering or bleeding or else. There will always place for someone special like you in my poisonous heart. Always will.
From the day I see the world, I didn’t know that besides of my family there is person who need me.
I’m a nobody and nobody needs me. I don’t want you to wait for me because I know that I’m not worth it. Don’t let me feel guilty for losing you. Please. I’m not disappeared and never was. I was always with you. My ghost is always with you and keep you company. You don’t have to worry about feel so alone. You are not ’that kind of enemy’. You are my enemy also known as my best friend that I will always love. I love you as my adorable best friend ever. No one will take your place in my heart. You are like my guardian angel that always shines like a star and my crazy sister that makes the star brighter. I love you and I love our memories forever.
sincerely yours,
angeLyana
